Spellfire17

I recently discovered that I'm pregnant. In the past week or so that I've know I've been made to feel guilty, ashamed and humiliated. I've been wanting a child for awhile. My current pregnancy was not planned though. It was a fluke. Is a fluke. Degrading me is not gonna change that. A once thought of happy occasion is now being twisted and mutated into something horrid. I really don't to ever have children right now. Or ever for that matter. I pray that by the end of the week something happens to make me change my mind. Life should be something to celebrate. Not something to curse.... I hurt so much right now. I'm ready to just give up, and d

I am so happy i have internet now..... I like being able to do what i want.... I dont have to ask my friends to get on the computer and i dont have to be restricted from sites..... Anyways, this is my first day off in over a week..... Its nice to stay home and not have to go anywhere.... Its my moms day off too.... Tomorrow i get to wake up early and take my written test... I cant wait for friday!!!! I get to see my best friend!!!! Shes gonna spend two nights with me then we're gonna spend a few days at her house!!! Then on the 14th we're going to meet Rick Riordan!!!!! Hes doing a book signing!!!! His new book comes out on the 12th too!!!!

I have had a somewhat great month! I got up the courage to tell my friends brother that i like im!!! He was half asleep though.... He didnt understand what i was telling him..... I thought he didnt like me.... So i gave up for a bit...... I was kinda depressed so i talked to my friend and she told me that he really liked me!!!!!! He would have asked me out if my sister hadnt spooked him.... I havent seen him in a week and im getting kinda worried...... Hes a great guy and i wish hed realize that im not gonna hurt him like his last girlfriends did....... Boys need to learn to trust girls..... I would never hurt him....... Ive been hurt before